Lonely forever more

I cry as the days go by

no love for me ever again

I cry with my entire soul

I yearn to be loved to be cherished

I yearn to be beautiful

i yearn for some to hold me

 

Morrigu

Supreme WarGoddess

With eyes dark as the night

Your hair has colours of the dying sun

You are The light in the darkness

Your spirit pulsates in my veins

I want revenge

I crave for those who harmed me

to suffer like I do

I want them to pay

pay the price of harming one

of your witches.

I am the darkness

I am the womb

I am the Black Sea

the abyss which absorbs it all until

I burst and give rebirth

The winter is my regin it

gives a away for the spring

I am the bottomless pit

I am in the nightmares although

I don´t create yours

I don´t create your anxiety

and panicattacks either

I challenge you to be strong,

don´t be anyones pushover

don´t anyones serf.

My gift to you is to take your powers

take up the tools I have given you,

create the life you want

live your dream and one day

it willl be your reality

 

Lady of Avalon

Modron Morgue Le Fay

It is my trust in Her

That makes me keep on struggle

I have confident and faith in a better future.

I love to be outdoors

be connected to Her at some solitude place were there

are no other people who may disturb me.

disturb my spiritual connection with Her.

She is everywere, within me

and in everything around me.

In the moon during the night

In the sun at day

To feel Your embrace while I shiver of anxiety

to be caressed by You

Not being taunted for my pain anxiety.

You shield me from the madness the complete insanity

that threatens to destroy me.

You fill me with strength and power to move on

go through all the terror, anxiety with you by my side.

You make me aware of that it is all an illusion

they cant harm me, the other people have no power over me

I don´t need their false friendship or their bullying

Their ignorance doesn´t even bother me anymore.

They try to crush everything I believe in.

They do whatever they can to get my down so that I can be

their victim, their serf.

They are so jealous cause

I have what they don´t

trust in Her

For so many years I have feared,hated

and loved them

as I have descpiced my self.

Stigmatized by the inner terror

the anxiety and panic attacks

I ignore their patetic attempt to drag me me down to their misery.

It vanishes, just like their power and attempts to mug me is gone.

the anxiety and panicattacks is nothing but fears and

memories of traumatic experiences.

I choose if others shall rule my life

I choose if the anxiety and panicattacks shall controle me.

I am strong now, I can stand on my own.

My strength and power comes from within

No one can take that away from me.

My trust in Her, my witchcraft, art and poetry

is my way to survive

in a cruel heartless world with none compassion

for those who are different.

Goddess you are my shelter both in joy as well in sorrow.

From You I get the comfort and care I cannot get from other people.

From you I get the strength and will to live

The tenderness in your voice while You speak to me

The strength in Your arms when You hold me

The love in Your eyes when you look at me

the power in your embrace while you shield me

from the other people ignorance, cruelty

and the anxiety and panicattacks

With You I can be as I am

I am never to gloomy

to morbid

or to happy

to exited

with you I can be the one I am.

You are the Light in my life.

Either I travel on the top of the hills in life

or at the deepest abyss

 

Lady of Avalon

A place were my soul belong

a magical enchanted world.

Inside me are You

All around you are as you have always been and ever shall be.

I see Your beauty in the gorgeous nature.

While I am alone outdoors at you sacred altar

it is like the boring everyday with all its demands and duties

world doesnt exist anymore.

My connection to You is all that matters

The air I breath is You, the gentle touch of the wind is your hands

who lovingly caress me.

You encirle me completely

You fill me with Your energy

You are all around me

And Yours I shall be forever

You are inside me

My heart is your altar

my soul sing your praises for eternities

In the powerful trees I see your strentgh

in the greenery I see your

hair black as night

Vioelett eyes with unconditional love

in the flowers beauty I can sense you sorrow

Sadness over all the destruction on the this planet

How we humanbeings Your children

oppress each other

cause other harm and needless suffering

humans are being supressed

animals being exticted

nature destroyed.

Even though we human being cause so much

damage destruction and suffering

You are always there for us.

You love us uncondionally

You are calways there to give as a hand and guide on our path.

Granting us strength and power.

You are always here for us,

You never desert any of us.

 

 

Morgan Le Fay Morrigan

My heart radiates with love for you

The dark and light is

met within Me forever entwinned.

It is all about balance.

I am the fiery the passion that burns in your soul.

Feel my Sister Lady of The Lake Morganna Le Faye

wash away all your pain with Her cleansing rain.

It is all about trust, how you choose to live,

When you feel empty and your path is lost call to Me,

I will be there as I always has been.

When you think that this is your last miniutes of your

miserble life cause your inner terror is to hard to handle for you.

I will be there giving you strength,

help you to move beyond the pain that shackles you.

I will breath sweet life into you dying veins.

I am the Light that lights up all darkness.

Give all your fears and woes to Me and I will turn

it to tools of power.

Or you can choose to live by your own

fears and negativity, letting them consume

you more and more. What you choose is up to you.

I will always be here to guide you no matter what.

All you need is to have faith, faith in Me believe in yourself.

MorgAine Morrigan

Hear my song of adoration to Thee

Oh powerful Mistress of the Night

In Your hands are my existance

my body,

my soul,

and my life is Yours

Lady bless me

Lady keep me

Lady stengthen me

Lady protect me

Lady guide me

Lady light my way

Lady you are my hope

Lady you are my life

Lady you are my souls delight

Lady you are all that is has been and ever shall be

I worship thee I worship thee I worship thee

Blessed Be

 

 

Praise to Morgaine Le Fay

Glorious Goddess

Enchanting Lady of Avalon

Once as I felt so lost and lonely

I humbly asked you to be apart of my life

To guide me and heal me

Now I have learned to follow you

To trust and have faith in you

Even though I at times

Ran away from you

I even tried to push you away from me

So that I could die in my misery

But you continued to stay with me

You knew that it wasn't you I wanted to leave

It was my misery

Lady you are always with me

Comforting guiding and healing me

I am so grateful for all Your

Love comfort guidance healing and

Protection you have given me

Morgaine Lady of Avalon

You are the mistress of magick,

Lady of the Lake

I wish that I will be

A great priestess for you

I honor Thee

With my heart soul and mind

I love Thee above all things

I worship You with my entire being

 

 The Snowqueen

Fata Morgana, Morrigan the Cailech

The Snow is falling

Creates a huge white carpet of the earth

The trees and land are leaveless no greennery

anymore it is all dead

The tree raises their skeleton hands to the sky

Skin pale as the snow

Hair like dying sun

Eyes black as the bottomless abyss

She is watching you.

As I walk there in the snow

the snow has never felt more beautiful

so tempting to lie down

just rest for a while in white snow.

I am so tired

Fall to the ground on the ice

The snow fall harder embraces me like a carpet.

So wonderful

close my eyes for a while

-Get up!

This is now place to sleep.

You curl up in the snow

soon it will be all over

no more pain

no more suffering.

All that exist is your wish

of the deepest and most lovely

sleep of all.

The SnowQueen scream in the wind

at you like the baneshee

 

 

I want to die

I want to die

here I lay here I lay to die

here I lay crying in my sleep

waking to stare at the darkest sky

staring as it begins to rain

deeper deep a moaning sign

try to ease the blinding pain

 

tears fall tears that burn the ground

the sky starts to sway

here I lay to one day finally decay

in the down pour of heavens tears

I lay on the shore

my eyes staring at the silenced grey as the sun

sets soon the rain lets up

and a darker sky grows still

as the clouds travel away

here I lay in a flood of desire

 

I want to die

but here I lay still breathing

I want my soul to retire

but I lay here with my heart still beating

I scream I shout louder as the sun rises to show a clear sapphire sky

my dream I doubt will come true

I cry for the hours glass to run out

I cry with my entire soul

but alous if will not run now

 

I want to to loose control

but control embraced me

here I lay in a crypt were my heart is placed

I want life to let go and to free me of this disese

I lay here and watch an oil covered bird

it is flying it last flight falls to rest through the trees

I wish an hour gone and my life was dead

 

here I lay

here I lay to die

here I lay crying myself to an endless sleep

I stare at the brightest sky

I wish for a deadly acid rain

deeper deep the moaning sign

try to ease the everbinding pain

my tears fall my tears burn the ground

I close my eyes I let this horror slowly fade away

 

you said I could come with my problems

and it would all work out in the end

you said you knew how I felt when I said I wanted to die

you said you knew what it was like when all I ever did was cry

you said I could always count on you

you would always be there for me

so were were you when I needed a friend

 

I am only human

nothing soothes my pain

death is allround us

life is just a game

no one understands me

they just think they know me

maybe death will show them all.

all life is just a game

 

they say my poems are trashy

say my art depress them

do they really care

do the y understand

life is just a fucked up game we play

close your eyes my sweet

let the tears flow down

maybe they will notice the pain they throw around

souless eyes of darkned powers

with no love she cries and covers.

 

 

The End

Sometimes love is you have

and people crush your dreams

pull you into pieces and rip you at the seans

you get pulled inside out

and you feel you are ready to die

the rain comes down really hard and you begin to cry

black darkness closes you in

and your voices catches in your throat

you feel you are driffting through a dream in a very small boat

you open the vein and let it flow

 

blood pouring everywere

you feel like leaving the pain

and your life standing there

body standing still

soul standing up

you go into a dark sleep

darkness closes you in yet again

and the pain goes deep you yell and throw things

blood splattering everywere you tear apart everything

and blood is running through your hair

you run oyt of energy very quickly

 

lay on the floor crying

you realize very quickly that you will soon be dying

life looses it is fight for a while

and you lay the death creeps in slowly killing here and there

love did this to you

love is the end of it all

just lay down to die

so that you won´t get forced to cry.

 

 

Prisoner of Darkness

The cruelty you put me through has stigmatized my soul

the memories remain there forever.

You heartless attitude and abuse took all my trust

and joy away from me.

Cause of what you have done

 

I can never love again

I can never trust a man again.

I can never feel safe anywere,

cause even beyond the most gentle face there may be

a monsterous soul out to harm.

Hate runs through my veins

the black power fills me.

 

The Hate is like poison

killing everything good in me.

All becaurse of your evil deeds

you crushed every bone in my body

you tormented me

you kicked my, while I was begging

for forgiveness, pleading you to stop.

bloody and dying you left me to die in the cold.

All I did or said was wrong.

 

 

Tears of Blood

Through the cold autum, harsh winter and rainy spring

you were the only one who cared about me.

You were the only one I got.

I left everything and everyone just to be with you.

I could never understand that I gave you much

more than what I could get.

 

Through this terrible time

you were there listening and comforting

Your words were caressing my tortured soul

Your arms were the safety in my life.

I loved you more than anything else in life.

I sacrificed it all to be with you my love.

But I came to close to the fire.

The fire burned down my wings.

 

As an outburned ashes I can never love again

As the time goes, leaves are falling.

My wounded heart slowly bleeds to death.

My feelings withering away.

Only memories remains,

Like shattered hearts, roses with bittersweet smell

My tears are the blood in the snow and on the frozen ice.

My lacerated bloody soul is like forgotten rose begging for thaw

My lips are frozen

My heart is dead

My life is gone forever more

 

Praise To Morgan Le Fay

Glorious Goddess Enchanting Lady of Avalon

Once as I felt so lost and lonely I humbly asked you to be apart of my life

To guide me and heal me

Now I have learned to follow you

To trust and have faith in you Even though I at times

Ran away from you I even tried to push you away from me

So that I could die in my misery

But you continued to stay with me You knew that it wasn't you I wanted to leave

It was my misery Lady you are always with me

Comforting guiding and healing me

I am so grateful for all Your Love comfort guidance healing and

Protection you have given me

 

Morgaine Lady of Avalon

You are the mistress of magick,

Lady of the Lake

I wish that I will be A great priestess for you

I honor Thee With my heart soul and mind I love Thee above all things

I worship You with my entire being

 

Brighid
Goddess of shining light my heart have burned down to ashes.
It feels like the good in life has gone.
There is nothing left for me

Goddess of the flame
I humbly ask you to light
Your fire
In my heart and soul

Goddess of the fire
Please let me feel
Passion in life again
So that I may live again

Anguish
My life is neverendig strife
My mind and heart are wounded and filled
With pain, fear, anguish
Like the tortured soul
I am I get down on my knees

I pray that You who are my Mistress
Wants to show me the way out from the
Terrifying darkness
I pray that you will help to move on.
Suddenly the terrifying darkness within

Becomes more bright
Just like when the spring breaks trough
The long harsh winter.
My tears fall
I cry with joy

Thank you Goddess
For being here with me and for taking away
my pain and anguish
Thank you for being my light
And giving me strength to live.

Rebirth
Everything in my life has turned to anxiety.
With every breath I take cause me pain.
My heart is empty
I have nothing to give
I can't feel anything
My souls is dead it is all over now.

In front of me I see You
Goddess Morrighan and Cerridwen
I just lay down to die
I am too tired to escape
You reach out your hand to me
-I am to tired to strife

-I am to weak to fight the darkness this never ending terror.
I have no reason to live anymore
-If that was the truth my child, I wouldn't be here.
Now be brave and take my hand.
I rise slowly on tremble legs
And put my shaky hand in Hers

I close my eyes for a moment
I feel I am filled with serenity
Everything is quiet.
I open my eyes and see that everything
Around me is dead and has burned down to ashes.
It looks really scary

The goddess smiles gently ask me to
Look around once more.
Now I see that from the ashes some greenery
Has start growing
-My child. First you have to be to give me all your pain,
strife and trauma, before your new life begins.

Here is some of my favorite dark songs

Metallica

Fade to BlackLife, it seems, will fade away,
Drifting further every day,
Getting lost within myself,
Nothing matters no one else,

I have lost the will to live,
Simply nothing more to give,
There is nothing more for me,
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be,
Missing one inside of me,
Deathly lost, this can't be real,
Cannot stand this hell I feel,

Emptiness is filling me,
To the point of agony,
Growing darkness taking dawn,
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late,
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed,
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbyeParadiseLost
1. Don't Belong
People say I'm in the way
People say never betray
Oh when I've gone, when I've gone
You'll turn to me when I've gone, when I've gone

Need a little understanding for all I've done
In another situation I don't belong (belong)

Every day humiliate
Every way solemn in trait
Oh when I've gone, when I've gone
You'll turn the key when I've gone
Don't belong...

Need a little understanding for all I've done
In another situation I don't belong
Need a little understanding for all I've done
In another situation I would belong (belong)

Need a little understanding for all I've done
In another situation I don't belong
Need a little understanding for all I've done
In another situation I would belong (belong)

2. Close Your Eyes
For our saviour could not deny
All born the same
All born the same
You won't hear the truth

I can feel it, close your eyes
I still see...
You invent the proof
I can feel it, close your eyes
I still see...
You won't hear the truth

Born a failure
Could not deny
All born the same
All born the same
You won't hear the truth

I can feel it, close your eyes
I still see...
You invent the proof
I can feel it, close your eyes
I still see...
You won't hear the truth

For our saviour could not deny
You won't hear the truth

I can feel it, close your eyes
I still see...
You invent the proof
I can feel it, close your eyes
I still see...
You won't hear the truth

3. Grey
In this autumn rain
We're blessed with autumn skies (autumn skies)

I'm doing it for myself
Not somebody else
I'm doing it for myself

Calling out in shame
Silence engrained
Crying out your name
Something wrong but beautiful, so beautiful

In this awesome rage
Rejecting compromise (compromise)

Undoing it for myself
Not somebody else
Undoing for myself

Calling out in shame
Silence engrained
Crying out your name
Something wrong but beautiful, so beautiful

Like the dead fade away
Life a debt... fade away

Calling out in shame
Silence engrained
Crying out your name
Something wrong but beautiful, so beautiful

Calling out in shame
Silence engrained

4. Redshift
There's something in the air that greets me
There's something in the air
I don't know where I belong, or where does it go from here

See my dreams; they're not like anyone's

There's something in your stare that greets me
There's something in your stare that tells me where I belong
And where it all goes from here

I don't know where I belong or where it all goes from here

See my dreams; they're not like anyone's, anyone's

There's something in the air that greets me
There's something in the air
I don't know where I went wrong or where does it go from here

See my dreams; they're not like anyone's, anyone's

5. Forever After
It's orchestrated by another hand
Believe inferior dreams that I am
Orchestrated I don't understand
Belief increasing in me that I am

If only we could see and live the dream
If only we could still believe the dream

Forever after
Forever after maybe (sing)
Forever After

Without frustration
With no master plan
With nothing left of the dream that began

If only we could see and live the dream
If only we could still believe the dream

Forever after
Forever after maybe (sing)
Forever After
Forever after
Forever after maybe (sing)
Forever After

If only we could see and live the dream
If only we could still believe the dream

Frailty, frailty
Say you love me, till I get back

6. Sun Fading
Got a right to show you how I feel
Got a right the truth I can't conceal
Gotta lie to show you some appeal
Gotta lie to cherish all that's real

Sun fades in some way
Enter tragedy
Some where there's some way
Like all you ever dreamed

Got a mind to show you how I feel
Criticise the smallest of ordeals
Gotta try to show you how to fear
Gotta try to make you disappear

Sun fades in some way
Enter tragedy
Some where there's some way
Like all you ever dreamed

Sun fading
Sun fading

7. Laws Of Cause
All this was the cause
All this was because you rose
All that's moved across
Was meaningless you show

All this was towards
All this was towards your goal
All the laws of cause
Are meaningless you showed me

We account for cost
As we wander through the lows
Learn we live with loss
And feelings we don't show

All this was towards
All this was towards your goal
All the laws of cause
Are meaningless you showed me

Said you could
Believe you could
I'd wandered far astray
Forever yield the doorway to my pain

All this was towards
All this was towards your goal
All the laws of cause
Are meaningless you showed me

8. All You Leave Behind
On and on it rains
On and on no shelter
On and on it rains
The sun has gone forever

Let the sin go
Let the sin go
For all you leave behind...
Let the sin go

On and on abstain
All the more suppression
On and off with strain
All the more deception

Let the sin go
Let the sin go
For all you leave behind...
Let the sin go

It's all a state of mind
It's all a state of mind
It's all a state of mind
For all you leave behind...

Let the sin go
Let the sin go
For all you leave behind...
Let the sin go
Let the sin go
For all you leave behind...

9. Accept The Pain
Like a pill
Like a pill these dreams
Like a pill
Kill almost everything

Like a drop in the ocean
Life's a drop in the ocean
Like a pill it's all the same

Accept the pain, for all who ever tried
For all who tried

Overkill, Overkill it seems
Overkill, Feeding off all extremes
Loyalty through emotion
Cruelty kills devotion

Accept the pain, for all who ever tried
Accept the pain, as all our fears subside (our fears subside)

Like a pill
Like a pill these dreams
Like a pill
It's all the same, it's all the same

Accept the pain, for all who ever tried
Accept the pain, as spirits purify (purify)

10. Shine
Too easy to explain...

Too easy to explain
What you'll never talk about
Too easy to explain
But you'll never see the light behind an open door

Some days already all over for me...
Some days already all over for me

Too easy to refrain
What you'll never talk about
Too easy to refrain
But you'll never see the light behind an open door

See the light behind an open door

Some days already all over for me
Some days already all over for me

On these nights we shine
Love ain't all the time we learn
I'd never want it so

Too easy to explain
But you'll never...

Some days already all over for me
Some days already all over for me

On these nights we shine
Love ain't all the time we learn
I'd never want it so

See the light behind an open door...

11. Spirit
They say spirit always stays
They're all the same
These days experience decays
They all became

They're all the same

Agonising together
Like you know me
You must know me
All the tears I've endeavoured
You must owe me
You must owe me

They say will it all away
They're all the same
These days certainty is pain
They all became

They're all the same

Agonising together
Like you know me
You must know me
All the tears I've endeavoured
You must owe me

Sympathising together
Like you know me
You must know me
Live a life of surrender
You must owe me

12. Over The Madness
I've fallen down there once before
I've fallen down there once before
I'm always down there rest assured
I'm always down there rest assured

Falling, hands are tied
Anyone else but me
Falling, hands are tied
Anyone else but me

Calling out to end disgrace
Calling out for death's embrace
All around seems so obscure
All around seems less than pure

Falling, hands are tied
Anyone else but me
Falling, hands are tied
Anyone else but me

Getting over the madness
Getting over the strain
Getting over the madness
Getting over the strain

1. Enchantment

Like a fever, fever - inside of me
Like a fever, fever - inside of me

Stand fast, faithful one
See the moon and not the sun but I......
All I need is a simple reminder

Breakdown frail affairs
Turn from the elsuive starts but I......
All I need is a simple reminder

Guilt is feeding, feeding, inside I'm cold

In depth grasp the chains
Struggle as the waters gain but I......
All I need is a simple reminder

Observe the formation fight until the battle's won
But I...... All I need is a simple reminder

There's no rule to say you'll cry alone
Just find the strength to help you carry the load
Reverse the frown and let the power surge
But when alone you cannot resist the urge

Feel it, feel it, like the pain of dying
Feel it, feel it, like the pain of dying

Hold on face to face damaged by the
sad disgrace but I......
All I need is a simple reminder

Twisting the knife in vain end the
grief but whol will gain but I......
All I need is a simple excuse

Alone
Feeling so lost and lonely

I scream

I shout louder

But no one is there to hear me

My tears falls

tears of lonliness

why am I such a though target

why do I keep on destroying everything around me

making it impossible for anyone to love me

 

My heart aches

it aches to be loved

to be understood

My tormented sould bleeds to death

the blood colours the ground red

 

Great Lady, Almighty Morrigu

You see my pain and my misery

please take it away

Let me live agan

let me see the light again

Let the pain fade away

Let me feel love again

Blessed Be

 

 

Hi everyone,

I am a witch and a priestess of Morgaine Le Fay and The Morrigan. I am very interested in herbalogy,  the moon, rituals, magic, the craft, nature, the elements, animals and much more. I have a close relationship to the Lady, it feels like I have always belonged to Her. I paint and write a lot. I worship The Lady in all Her Aspects.

Nice to meet you all

Morgaine NightShade